I must get out of my mind to get into my soul

I believe we have the capacity to learn and do much greater things that what we do.  I believe that many have had a glimpse of what is available to all but much more is waiting.  I don't know if we are intentionally restrained from the knowledge because we are not ready or that we just haven't evolved to the point that we can access it.  However, I believe we all are visited in some way by messengers attempting to help us.

I receive spiritual messages in my dreams.  Some help guide me in life, and others are ambiguous in their message leaving me to interpret the meaning.  I often wonder if I am too old to receive and interpret the message accurately.  I feel that I wasn't open as a younger me and missed the opportunity, writing it off as simple dreams.  I am open now and am discouraged when I seem to interpret the message poorly.

How do I know the appropriate time frame?  How do I know the correct actions to take when the message comes in parable form?  I'm not sure i'm in touch with myself enough to comprehend the meaning.  I close my eyes and open my mind only to find myself thinking about closing my eyes and opening my mind.  I must find a way to get out of my mind.  How?

The only place I am fully out is in sleep.  No amount of meditation has moved me closer to reaching that point.  I would love to find a way to consciously reach the unconscious.  Maybe I try too hard.

Free Myself From Myself

I would like to free myself from myself.  But how?  How do I know that I have imprisioned myself?  I haven't locked myself behind bars, have I?  I haven't chained my feet, have I?  Why should I think I am not free? 


If I want to go surfing tomorrow, I will go.  But wait, I have work.  Well, I can go on Saturday, after I mow the grass and paint the room and...well, maybe I'll go Sunday.  Sunday, i'm visiting my parents, and then a friends house for a baby shower.  I'll go next week.  But we have to do the grocery shopping, soccer practice, client meetings, yard work, birthday party.  Hmm, I'll put it on my schedule for some time in the future.


For now I'll get some air outside.  I will think better out there.  My neighbor is mowing his lawn.  He must have worked late, it's nearly 8pm.  Another is edging.  I know he works late, he is in sales.  I think I hear the ice cream truck.  Good thing they can't see me behind my fence standing in my yard by myself not doing anything.  That would look weird.